I typically go through stages of feeling okay, and then feeling completely and utterly hopeless, and right now I'm trying desperately to pull myself out of the latter.
I've been thinking about how maybe it's okay to feel this way, that maybe I don't have to be positive all the time.
Because, really, who is?
So, through all my thinking, late night tear sessions, and long conversations with my Mom, I've realized that the one thing I never want to lose, is my sense of thankfulness.
Being thankful is different than just being positive, because it allows you to remember just how blessed you really are.
Positive thinking is great and it can be life-changing, but being thankful is more effective, especially when positive thinking just doesn't work.
Because when I am in one of those everything-is-pointless-and-nothing-makes-any-sense moods, positive thoughts don't do me any good.
But making a list of things I am thankful for HAS helped me tremendously.
Each night {or morning} I write in my journal things I was thankful for that day, and also things I am thankful for overall.
Here's one of my lists:
-being able to see my dogs playing and smiling
-being able to go to the gym and workout
-having a good talk with my Mom
-being able to relax and enjoy the things I love to do
-having a roof over my head and heat to stay warm
-being able to buy good foods to nourish my body
-being able to learn
-having people who love me for who I am
And I could go on and on, which is always good! I've found that writing out the things I'm thankful for {without judgement} has brought me a great sense of peace and happiness.
Because it makes me realize just how lucky i am, even though life may seem pointless or not make much sense at times.
I still am very blessed.
I would highly recommend this little practice and see what happens. How do you feel afterwards?
I hope it'll help you when you're feeling like everything is going wrong, or when you feel you don't have anything to live for.
xoxo