So what does that make you? Are you common just because you are a sufferer?
I hope you said no.
But the sad fact of the matter is that most women/girls/men/boys feel like just another number when being treated.
Or maybe it's just me.
When I entered treatment there was nothing special about me. I was anorexic in a room full of eight other anorexics.
We were all the same right? Dealing with the same behaviors, having the same issues, and could be healed all the same way?
How do I stop myself from
Being just a number
How will I hold my head
To keep from going under
Again, maybe it was just me and my situation. But it felt damn shitty that's for sure.
My first meeting with my counselor was full of note taking, nodding, and comments like, "Oh yeah we get that a lot" and "You're not the first to say that."
And it helps a bit I guess to know you're not the first to feel this way or that you're not totally out of the park for thinking a certain thought, but to me it just felt degrading.
I didn't want to be treated like just another statistic, just another number, another symptom on their list.
No I wanted to be treated like an individual who was struggling. I needed someone to listen to me and MY feelings.
So I straight out told my counselor that I didn't want to be treated that way and asked her to stop taking notes and stop referring to other patients and studies.
Granted I've never been one for counselors, but this helped me open up a bit more.
Is that a lot to ask for?
I don't think so.
What did you do about it?
Share your thoughts. I want to know.
xoxo
Tayla
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