Some would be all for this, but I wasn't a fan of the idea basically because it involved ice cream. But I LOVE ice cream, especially Ben & Jerry's (if you have never tried this, you are seriously missing out!)
So what was the problem?
The calories, the sugar, the fat, etc. The whole eating part was the problem. It was scary and I could feel myself getting anxious immediately.
We stopped at the store and walked to the frozen section and stood there looking at the array of options to choose from. They all looked amazing.
Even though I was anxious and a thousand ugly voices told me not to get anything, I reached in and picked out this bad boy.
The whole ten minutes on the drive home was brutal. My mind was in a constant battle between the reasons why I should eat it and why I shouldn't eat it. It may have looked something like this:
"You should just have it because you eat so good all the time, it's okay to have a treat now and again"
"Oh god, you're just making excuses for why you should eat it. you'll get fat immediately, or should I say MORE fat since you're already there."
"Why do you have to be so mean. I am not fat, I am strong and I workout and should be able to eat some fun treats!"
"whatever, you're going to regret it."
So yeah, anxious much! These thoughts drive me insane, I swear.
I got home, put the ice cream away and started making dinner. We ate then had to do some things around the house. When we finally decided to start the movie, my mind was racing again and flip-flopping back and forth, still trying to weigh the options.
My husband obviously didn't think twice about it and started eating his pint, so I grabbed mine out of the freezer and began eating.
I ate and ate and ate and loved every second of it. I enjoyed each bite and stopped thinking about how I might feel afterwards. My brain shifted towards the good thoughts about eating it and I watched the movie in peace.
Even though when I was done, my thoughts still raced with fears, I was able to zone them out and realize that one time of enjoyment was needed and that eating ice cream was awesome, not something to be ashamed of, and something that everyone should enjoy.
I thought about how my body was thanking me for providing it with nourishment, something it hasn't had in a while, and something that was delicious.
Moral of the story: it's okay to indulge and we shouldn't feel guilty about it. We should never avoid foods based on the fears associated with them, especially the fears of becoming fat, because who gives a shit. Really. Why are we all so concerned with our bodies looking a certain way?
Our bodies are not meant to be praised for how they look, but rather for what they can do.
That is what I am choosing to focus on, and encourage you to do the same!